But first, they must participate in the preparatory Endowment Ceremony which turns out to be full of shocking experiences like agreeing to have their throats slit or to be disemboweled if they ever speak of the secret things that happen inside the temple. In spite of this horrifying start they go through with their wedding the next day and begin their life together. Thirty years later Jon announces he is leaving the Mormon Church and all that repressed trauma rises up as Maureen examines how those early covenants affected her. She is battling her own lack of faith in a church that is becoming more conservative every day. Still, the journey to her own decision to leave the Mormon Church is deeply convoluted, unraveling the places where Mormonism controls her and those places where it fills her spiritually. In the search to tell her own truth she finds that in the end the only thing that really matters is her own sanity.